i realise now..
doing all the stuff to go to melbourne..
i had to ask for accomodatio 7 days in london ask the boss of here to have it free.
after all all i could have was 10 pounds night, so 83euros.
i only have 350 now.
if i sell the skateboard.. i can have 400 and something..
the flight to london for tomorrow 23 was cancelled so im flying the 28, two days before the flight to australia.
now i think about my cousin in china being there..
doing this much stuff and having so many things in my head, i realise theres no space for relax..
dude
stop this..
i want to go slow
breathing
not thinking in this and that and that and this...
thinking as a tool,
not as a way.
too many things to do..
theres no such thing like you have to achieve your dreams!!!
no!
happiness is not maade in such way.
theres no way to happiness.
happiness is the way.
i know it.
i wanted to find a balance between my development and the enjoyment of the present.
i dont know if im wrong, actually
being honest.
i know
im wrong.
my place is in the mountains.
slow
alone
sharing with friends..
but with a house on my own..
now
imagingmyself there
i feel afraid..
i think its because ive lost the center and im not taking care of my own things.
looking what others do, instead of look at my own shoes.
es una ilusion
no se
quiero pararlo
pero no quiero querer nada
no quieras nada leo
moviendome hacia lo que quiero, me doy cuenta de que me siento frustrado y triste porque creo que no soy lo que tengo que ser o me falta algo.
pero se que es mentira!
no es cierto
es la manera de vida la que da la verdad ?
si tomo una eleccion equivocada, todas las demas en consecuencia estan equivocadas ?
Dios
demasiados pensamientos
me voy a la cama
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